17 discord servers and one emotional breakdown

so there i was having an off day. y'know those days where every little thing feels like a lot? yeah, one of those. and instead of doing the grown-up thing and dealing with it, i did what i do best: i posted a lot on 17 discord servers.

it was... cathartic? maybe. it was definitely impulsive. i didn't check what i was saying. i was just there. passionately there. and then two hours later, all 17 servers i'm on decide to have a group chat about it. a group chat. about MY EMOTIONS. collectively agreeing that i need "help." they used my username. my username, man.

how did we get here?? one second i'm venting about the price of bread and the next second i'm in a memed-up group chat with people i met in a minecraft server in 2015. nobody stopped me. nobody said "hey maybe don't share that part of your soul with strangers."

the thing is, i don't regret it. well, i do a little. but also, sometimes you've just gotta upload your feelings to a bunch of strangers and let them sort it out. that's community. that's human connection. or whatever. the line between those two is real fuzzy and that's the point.

anyway, now we've got this group chat and every few days someone drops a new vent and we all just reply with emojis. it's kind of beautiful in a way. or horrifying. either way it's definitely something i will not be deleting from my cloud storage anytime soon.

so yeah, if you're ever having a rough day, maybe don't upload your entire emotional state to 17 discord servers. or do. depends how much you trust the internet at that moment. but also be prepared to get memed about for the rest of your life. i've accepted this is my trauma now.

sweet.